This one is especially for you...
Aku terpaku merenung matamu,
hatiku tertanya-tanya, BENARKAH ini?
nafas ku tertahan, kau tunduk SEGAN...
lalu ku bertanya...
"kau kentutkah?"
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
From The Lord 24.09.1985, To The Lord xx.xx.20xx
Since i came back from UTAR cf camp last year, i've started on a quite bizarre behavior, that is to look up to obituary section whenever i read the paper. A senior pastor during cf camp once asked, "How would you like your eulogy be written?". This hit me hard. "What the... I'm just 20+ nia, so fast want to think of what ppl would say about me when i die?". Anyway, as i was in a workshop so i have to squeeze out one to write down, by hook or by crook.
Many moons ago, i was captured upon one particular article, that i've had it cut out and kept till now. God bless his soul. It reads out like this:
"I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever" Psalm 23:6
God looked around his garden and He found an empty place. And He looked down upon the earth and He saw your tired face. He puts his arms around you and He lifted you to rest.God's garden must be beautiful, He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, He knew you were in pain; He knew that you will never get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough and the hills were hard to climb, so He closed your weary eyelids and whispered, "Peace Be Thine". It broke our hearts to lose you but you didn't go alone; for part of us went with you, the day God called you home!
Deeply missed and lovingly remembered by your wife, children, daughter-in-law, grandchildren and loved ones.
As i reckon eulogy is something others would do for me, once i no longer roam the surface of the earth, so, i let you to tell me. Do feel free to drop-in your eulogy for me, promise i'll seriously consider them :)
A song for you, How Great Is Our God by Chris Tomlin
Many moons ago, i was captured upon one particular article, that i've had it cut out and kept till now. God bless his soul. It reads out like this:
"I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever" Psalm 23:6
God looked around his garden and He found an empty place. And He looked down upon the earth and He saw your tired face. He puts his arms around you and He lifted you to rest.God's garden must be beautiful, He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, He knew you were in pain; He knew that you will never get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough and the hills were hard to climb, so He closed your weary eyelids and whispered, "Peace Be Thine". It broke our hearts to lose you but you didn't go alone; for part of us went with you, the day God called you home!
Deeply missed and lovingly remembered by your wife, children, daughter-in-law, grandchildren and loved ones.
As i reckon eulogy is something others would do for me, once i no longer roam the surface of the earth, so, i let you to tell me. Do feel free to drop-in your eulogy for me, promise i'll seriously consider them :)
A song for you, How Great Is Our God by Chris Tomlin
Monday, June 23, 2008
Discipleship Training
Think i owe God a piece of work, afterall he's blessed me tremendously eversince i attend the conference.
Last Saturday, i met with an almost no-hope situation that i couldn't make it to Discipleship; kereta lari, wang habis , hujan macam kucing dan anjing, masa talak...
Omg... I felt so sorry, God... As i was sms-ing my way to inform Carmen that i couldn't make it, all of a sudden my phone rang. It was Kong Hui. On the phone he asked me something to which i forgot what it is and i saja-saja ask him where is he, "I'm catching a cab to jiau hui lor, Discipleship ma..." THANK GOD!!! But wait, who knows whether the cab is already packed with desarians? My next question pops up, "Still got place?" to which he started counting, "Me, Hui Yee, Hui Ling, that's all...". AMEN!!! In His own hands me Lord delivered a seat for me!!! He reminds me of the song Wo You Tuo Jong Yau. When i jumped into the cab Hui Yee started teasing, "You good ler, no need to get wet..." to which in my heart i replied, "Of course la, my Lord has kept me under His wings..."
For the rest of YOU, whatcha waitin' for? C'mon in, join me under His wings~
Last Saturday, i met with an almost no-hope situation that i couldn't make it to Discipleship; kereta lari, wang habis , hujan macam kucing dan anjing, masa talak...
Omg... I felt so sorry, God... As i was sms-ing my way to inform Carmen that i couldn't make it, all of a sudden my phone rang. It was Kong Hui. On the phone he asked me something to which i forgot what it is and i saja-saja ask him where is he, "I'm catching a cab to jiau hui lor, Discipleship ma..." THANK GOD!!! But wait, who knows whether the cab is already packed with desarians? My next question pops up, "Still got place?" to which he started counting, "Me, Hui Yee, Hui Ling, that's all...". AMEN!!! In His own hands me Lord delivered a seat for me!!! He reminds me of the song Wo You Tuo Jong Yau. When i jumped into the cab Hui Yee started teasing, "You good ler, no need to get wet..." to which in my heart i replied, "Of course la, my Lord has kept me under His wings..."
For the rest of YOU, whatcha waitin' for? C'mon in, join me under His wings~
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Joke of the day 2
I'm tired today, so here's your feed for the day:
" Manusia jatuh CinTa??Tak hairan...
Kuda makan RuMpuT?? Tak aneh...
MONYET pandai picit TETIKUS(MOUSE)?? HEBAT!!!!"
MASIH PICIT??
LUAR BIASA!!!!
" Manusia jatuh CinTa??Tak hairan...
Kuda makan RuMpuT?? Tak aneh...
MONYET pandai picit TETIKUS(MOUSE)?? HEBAT!!!!"
MASIH PICIT??
LUAR BIASA!!!!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Facing The Giants
Yeahahha... As i'm typing this, my cousin from my second hometown(nicknamed oriental pearl) called. He'll be staying over for 3 days or more at the end of the month. Man, i couldn't express how glad i am on hearing this. This way i could at least persuade him to attend church for once. He's a pure scientologist and i do pray that on one day he'd stop believing he originated from a worm of an ancient primate.
On another matter, it's been awhile since i fell on my knees and come this close to God. This afternoon is truly an extraordinary one as God really guide me step by step and lead me so close to Him. Of late, my computer has been infected with about 120 viruses/worms and will sometimes fail to switch off. So this usual drama happen when i try and try but to no avail, which prompted me to watch this VCD that i bought during 1 christian bookfair held at Times Square quite sometime ago.
"Facing The Giants... Hmmm... maybe this would kill some time...", I said. And God spoke to me thru this movie. In this movie, a young chap asked his old folk,"But why does god make me so small?" to which he replied,"So that His greatness will prevail".(Okla okla it wasn't exactly what they said but if you wanna know more about it just ask me for lending la har) This conversation touched me deep within and the rest of the movie lifted my spirit to turn the whole house into a prayer room. We're made little, weak, and maybe a lil' small like a snail(sorry machi if you happen to be reading this now) but all this happen for a reason. So stop cursing your legs for refusing to grow or your limbs for being too tiny already!!!
Fastforward to my prayer+devotion time; they're as electrifying as it gets. I cried like a baby(why yes, men do cry at times) . As for everything else, God made way for me. I've never come across so many blessings at once! He 'switched on' my computer as i whispered to Him that i wanted to worship Him with a song(in the computer). My date with Him was without interference as my phone started ringing the moment i'm done. The earlier failure to use my computer so that i could watch a worthy movie.
My covenant with God: I will worship Him in the morning and i'll listen to His words at night. And i wish to keep it that way :)
Ps: No snail were harmed in the making of this post.
On another matter, it's been awhile since i fell on my knees and come this close to God. This afternoon is truly an extraordinary one as God really guide me step by step and lead me so close to Him. Of late, my computer has been infected with about 120 viruses/worms and will sometimes fail to switch off. So this usual drama happen when i try and try but to no avail, which prompted me to watch this VCD that i bought during 1 christian bookfair held at Times Square quite sometime ago.
"Facing The Giants... Hmmm... maybe this would kill some time...", I said. And God spoke to me thru this movie. In this movie, a young chap asked his old folk,"But why does god make me so small?" to which he replied,"So that His greatness will prevail".(Okla okla it wasn't exactly what they said but if you wanna know more about it just ask me for lending la har) This conversation touched me deep within and the rest of the movie lifted my spirit to turn the whole house into a prayer room. We're made little, weak, and maybe a lil' small like a snail(sorry machi if you happen to be reading this now) but all this happen for a reason. So stop cursing your legs for refusing to grow or your limbs for being too tiny already!!!
Fastforward to my prayer+devotion time; they're as electrifying as it gets. I cried like a baby(why yes, men do cry at times) . As for everything else, God made way for me. I've never come across so many blessings at once! He 'switched on' my computer as i whispered to Him that i wanted to worship Him with a song(in the computer). My date with Him was without interference as my phone started ringing the moment i'm done. The earlier failure to use my computer so that i could watch a worthy movie.
My covenant with God: I will worship Him in the morning and i'll listen to His words at night. And i wish to keep it that way :)
Ps: No snail were harmed in the making of this post.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Joke of the day 1
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
The new rail transit...
The RM4 to 5 billion rail transit line spanning from Kota Damansara to Cheras project certainly raised many eyebrows including mine. I'll be expecting some ramblings coming from our former prime minister anytime soon, tho i can only tell that the only thing he might complain about is why the heck is that rail not being built at somewhere else as we already have 3,4 or 5 transits serving KL folks alone. Why KL? Are the population in Penang not denser than that of Kota Damansara? Would those averagely more well-off folks in Damansara opt for transit and leave their BMW 5series to rot? I don't know and am certainly not of the slightest degree be bothered, as long as it served my interest for i'm a KL-ian. What i'm concern is the quality of its implementation. While we've always known that our government is so 'sensitive' to our needs and strives to feed us with projects after projects, they are mostly handed down to blood-sucking contractors. All they ever think of is how to maximize income and minimize expenditure. But many times because of their cost-cutting practices, we end users suffer a whole lot more, not to mention extra costs incur for extra maintenance cost for those shitty workmanship they've provided.
If you happen to be one of the country's million+ commuter, you'd have found out that outlook can be deceiving. While RapidKL has been doing well thus far, giving people the impression of "Wa, new bus wor, flat-rate ticket summore, what a wonderful country am i living in", much of these would fade off the moment you sit on the bench(of the bus). Here's what it's all about; most of the fleets install all-plastic seats, which means all good-looking but not comfy. They're hard to your bottom and the inadequate height, lol, if you're one of those big-headed guy i feel sorry for you, you won't get to rest your neck for the rest of your journey! You also tend to slide as you sit as there's minimum friction between you bottom and the surface. Oh, and not forgetting to mention that the seats will mould you into The Hunchback of Notre Dame should you stay in the bus long enough. A total ignorance to human body shape(i'm speechless if the seats are meant for Humpty Dumpty)
Also, if you've tried the lrts here, you'd agree with me that the former StarLRT trains fared better in terms of capacity and comfortability. Yes, the metal based seats do give away when the train moves, rendering you of sliding away from your seat, but heck, you get to play with it (provided there's no one sitting next to you). But if you consider carefully, you'll see that the metal seats can accommodate more commuters(average 6 to 7 peps per row) during peak hours and provide comfort to over-sized people. (If you don't already know this fact, Malaysians are among the fattest citizen in this region, thanks to the love for food and the all-year-round multiracial festivals). Whereas for former Putra-LRT trains, their plastic seats are space-limited, and their seats are fixed(maximum 6 per row, mostly 4 per row). Moreover, the partitions in the train amplify traveling noises that even a blasting mp3 player wouldn't spare your ears.
My only hope is that our 'ever-sensitive' government would not overlook this matter as it only requires a drop of ink to spoil a whole barrel of milk. Let not the people in cheras and kota damansara suffer. But i'm not all too hopeful as i reckon RapidKL is a pet company to our current government, and knowing their game, they'd mostly provide us with PutraLRT-like seats. Let's pray and hope not.
If you happen to be one of the country's million+ commuter, you'd have found out that outlook can be deceiving. While RapidKL has been doing well thus far, giving people the impression of "Wa, new bus wor, flat-rate ticket summore, what a wonderful country am i living in", much of these would fade off the moment you sit on the bench(of the bus). Here's what it's all about; most of the fleets install all-plastic seats, which means all good-looking but not comfy. They're hard to your bottom and the inadequate height, lol, if you're one of those big-headed guy i feel sorry for you, you won't get to rest your neck for the rest of your journey! You also tend to slide as you sit as there's minimum friction between you bottom and the surface. Oh, and not forgetting to mention that the seats will mould you into The Hunchback of Notre Dame should you stay in the bus long enough. A total ignorance to human body shape(i'm speechless if the seats are meant for Humpty Dumpty)
Also, if you've tried the lrts here, you'd agree with me that the former StarLRT trains fared better in terms of capacity and comfortability. Yes, the metal based seats do give away when the train moves, rendering you of sliding away from your seat, but heck, you get to play with it (provided there's no one sitting next to you). But if you consider carefully, you'll see that the metal seats can accommodate more commuters(average 6 to 7 peps per row) during peak hours and provide comfort to over-sized people. (If you don't already know this fact, Malaysians are among the fattest citizen in this region, thanks to the love for food and the all-year-round multiracial festivals). Whereas for former Putra-LRT trains, their plastic seats are space-limited, and their seats are fixed(maximum 6 per row, mostly 4 per row). Moreover, the partitions in the train amplify traveling noises that even a blasting mp3 player wouldn't spare your ears.
My only hope is that our 'ever-sensitive' government would not overlook this matter as it only requires a drop of ink to spoil a whole barrel of milk. Let not the people in cheras and kota damansara suffer. But i'm not all too hopeful as i reckon RapidKL is a pet company to our current government, and knowing their game, they'd mostly provide us with PutraLRT-like seats. Let's pray and hope not.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Moral of the day
Recently i've come across a friend of mine(to avoid from being sued, i've always opted to refrain from giving out names, and no, not even gender), who's currently working in a company. One day, the said person (TSP) applied for leave for a few days and upon returning to work, TSP landed into deep trouble. To cut it short, TSP's superior was being grilled for the mistake TSP did and the customer threatened to bring this matter to court as he was furious that he might be black listed by the government. Upon checking with relevant parties, TSP's superior assured to the customer that he'd only be warned. "Phew" i think that's the only word TSP could spill out at that time, citing a sign of relief. But that's not it. Back in office, knowing that TSP is at fault for the mistake, the supervisor began talking bad about TSP. By lunchtime, the whole staff knows about it, well, atleast not to the upmost level of management. That's it. When you're in corporate world, your mistake will be magnified.
And so TSP felt terrible and began to apologize to the supervisor, whom eventually appeared to be a very forgiving bloke. What i'm trying to tell is that although the world is deemed to be very harsh, ppl appear to be very forgiving towards young working adults. No matter how wrongly you handle a situation you seem to always be able to walk away with nothing more than a minor lecture. Try to do that when you can no longer cheat your way to a student-priced movie and i bet with my neighbour's car your sorry 'behind' will be deeply grilled and you yourself will be crucified before dusk.
Moral of the story: Make as much mistake you can while you're young, and learn how not to repeat them (not forgetting the magic word "sorry" after you've experimented with a situation which failed)
And so TSP felt terrible and began to apologize to the supervisor, whom eventually appeared to be a very forgiving bloke. What i'm trying to tell is that although the world is deemed to be very harsh, ppl appear to be very forgiving towards young working adults. No matter how wrongly you handle a situation you seem to always be able to walk away with nothing more than a minor lecture. Try to do that when you can no longer cheat your way to a student-priced movie and i bet with my neighbour's car your sorry 'behind' will be deeply grilled and you yourself will be crucified before dusk.
Moral of the story: Make as much mistake you can while you're young, and learn how not to repeat them (not forgetting the magic word "sorry" after you've experimented with a situation which failed)
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Just a piece of my mind...
Ever wonder how vulnerable are you when you're left in an open sea (on a boat ofcourse, unless you're named Peter), with fuel running out real fast, violent weather brewing just on top of your very capped head knowing your cap doesn't do much in such situation, except letting others know that you're dead when they finally found your cap, if it ever get washed offshore lol, your navigation system malfunctioned (the only navigation system with me is my precious eyes, with thick mist sweeping the boat like no one cares simply means i'm screwed)... Well, i'll share that on another day, i'm not really into this of now :(
Or wonder how embarrassed that could be, being in a half-packed stadium of whom most knows you or at least knew(or heard of) your name, witnessed you..... (Not today either)
Just some thoughts to fit in my currently 'empty' timetable. For the record, my finals ended on 8th of may, and each of the following days were filled until 9th of june, man, words jsut can't express how thankful i am to Him for fitting my timetable so perfectly.
And yeah, still to come, i'll try to squeze in some time to write about A4J conference, things that you want but don't normally see, and things you don't really wanna see...
Till then...
Or wonder how embarrassed that could be, being in a half-packed stadium of whom most knows you or at least knew(or heard of) your name, witnessed you..... (Not today either)
Just some thoughts to fit in my currently 'empty' timetable. For the record, my finals ended on 8th of may, and each of the following days were filled until 9th of june, man, words jsut can't express how thankful i am to Him for fitting my timetable so perfectly.
And yeah, still to come, i'll try to squeze in some time to write about A4J conference, things that you want but don't normally see, and things you don't really wanna see...
Till then...
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Last nite...
As i was so frustrated last nite, i didn't sleep well. As i was labeled an unforgiving person not too long ago, i began to think; is there a thing for me to forgive? I mean, The Said Person(TSP) didn't even think that TSP is at fault. how could TSP tell me that i'm unforgiving towards TSP? I do agree to some extend that my treatment towards TSP is rather cold nowadays, but no, it doesn't come from TSP's misdeeds. In fact, i don't even recall what wrong did TSP do to me or my family members. Rather, it came from a relationship detachment. Having said that, i'm evaluating whether our relationship should keep going, or should i call it quits...
Many times i'll just bite the bullet telling myself,"TSP is someone special to me, just let it be lah..." but who else would expect their landfill not to be filled up despite them frequently dumping in shit! Well, i'd had enough, and to save myself from being stabbed into my heart again, i've decided not to open my arms again, for good. At least till TSP finally changes the attitudes, or with god's help, i'll just have to change myself to cope with the already strained relationship 'To live without TSP' deck is on the table, i certainly wish i'd not have to come to that point but for now, i just pray for a miracle...
I Believe In Miracle - By Ps Philip Mantofa (If u liked sweeney todd n moulin rouge, this would be your jam!)
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